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ANXIETY | THE AUTHENTIC ECLECTIC
Combat the Paralysis of Brain Overload: Tips Hide Right in Front of Your Eyes
A plan to get through day by day, minute by minute
The high mountain of obligations looks insurmountable from down here.
I spin in one spot.
Inertia.
For no less than three days in a row, I awoke motivated only to break my own mental rules for maintaining focus.
My brain wakes me at 3 or 4 a.m. I lay there in a vortex of overwhelming thoughts.
Spinning, swirling, suffocating, as I review the looming responsibilities.
The weight of too many obligations squeezes the breath from my lungs.
Sleep eludes me. I pad downstairs into the darkness of my kitchen, careful not to disturb my grandson.
I should stay in bed but I already know that drifting back off is a distant memory, for now. Unless and until I take care of myself, proper sleep will wait.
I know better.
But the train is having problems getting back on track.
For years, I successfully avoided being overwhelmed by simply lopping off the easiest, and least involved, tasks.